"I prayed for this child and the LORD has granted me what I asked of Him" 1Samuel 1:27

Monday, October 24, 2016


Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” And I said, “Here am I. Send me!” ISAIAH 6:8
I will give you hidden treasures, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the Lord the God of Israel, who summons you by name. ISAIAH 45:3

He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength.
ISAIAH 40:29

Lord, you are my God; I will exalt you and praise your name, for in perfect faithfulness you have done wonderful things, things planned long ago.  ISAIAH 25:1

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.  ISAIAH 41:10

But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.  ISAIAH 40:31

For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.  ISAIAH 41:13

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.  ISAIAH 43:2

Even to your old age and gray hairs  I am he, I am he who will sustain you.
I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.  ISAIAH 46:4


We both knew the answer. We have been here before! But even still, we wrestled with the Lord. And I'm ashamed to admit it, but I struggled most of all.  I knew the cost of doing this again.(not talking about money) Matthew 10:34-37 had always been one of those verses in the bible that I always just kinda.......wondered about...... didn't want to know?? Well, I can promise you, I/we, have come to know that verse very personally. That "sword" means separation. We get it. It's been heartbreaking and tough.  But we trust Him, and believe His promises are true. All of them. So here we are!  Trusting, Believing, and fixin to go get this precious treasure of His. 


(during my struggle with a "yes", God used lots of scriptures from Isaiah to help me along. The above ones are just a few. We both knew this was his name!)

You too are worthy little man, and you will be forever loved.  :)


Wednesday, September 21, 2016


"Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me his own." Philippians 3:12

Sometimes going forward in the adoption world is a very slow process. Heck sometimes it's just flat non-existent! You hurry up and finish mounds of paperwork, send it in, and then wait, and wait, and wait some more. It seems you'll never be able to move forward to the next step. And then one day, when you least expect it, there's movement. But at times it's not always forward that you go. Sometimes the news you get about your soon to be child is not what you want to hear, or that certain paper you've been waiting for, it's lost and you have to re-do, or the agency your using closes out of no where, and you are sent spinning backwards, and at such a speed you think you'll never be able to recover and go forward again or at least not any time soon. Thankfully this has not happened in our adoption process of Isaiah, thank you Jesus, but, my family and I, and my brother Rob's family, have been in somewhat of a backwards free fall and at speeds that seem will never slow down. And at times, it seems life will never go forward again, and this is especially true for his wife, 3 kids and grandkids. You see, he was their go to. He was the planner, the protector, the adviser, the cook, the serious but fun loving dad, granddad and husband. For me, he was my only brother, my only sibling, and for my mom and dad, he was their only son.  My brother was diagnosed with cancer on August 5.  It took a week to get him into MD Anderson in Houston. He was there a week for tests. He was told he could not win the battle against this cancer.  It was fast. It was aggressive. He came home, and 4 days later on August 24th, he succumbed to this horrible disease. He in fact did not win against this cancer, but he DID WIN his crown in glory! No more pain, no more tests, no more cancer. Ever. He was healed to perfection and re-united with old friends and long missed grandparents.  No, it's not the healing we hoped for, but for Rob, he got the best of the best, just as God had planned it, long ago. Rob King, my brother, WON THE ULTIMATE PRIZE on August 24, 2016.. He is being greatly missed by many. And so as we his family, especially his wife and kiddos, navigate the days and months ahead without him, please continue to pray for God's comfort in our lives.  I know the race set before us will not come without pain, but I also know, without doubt, when striving toward the final finish and the ultimate "Prize" that awaits us, if we keep our eyes on Jesus, He will bring us to our long awaited reward............and so we PRESS ON.   :) 
“I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me         heavenward in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 3:14


Friday, July 29, 2016


Oh holy geez!  It HAS been a longgggg time since I sat down to write my thoughts down and share whats been goin on here. But honestly, I've been alittle bit busy, alittle bit lazy, alittle bit overwhelmed, a little bit confused, alittle bit frustrated, and  A WHOLE LOT OF THANKFUL.  Thankful and grateful for the life I'm living, the life I've been given and the hand I've been dealt.  Yep, the good, the bad and the ugly. I'm thankful for it all.  It's been almost 2 yrs since I blogged, the last being just shortly after bringing home our son Josiah from China, who by the way is doing very well.  I fully intended on continuing to blog so that those who have maybe followed us, with Gabe's adoption from Russia in 2011 and then Josiah's in 2014, could see how these boys have come alive and thrived with having a family of their own.  It's amazing what love and nurturing can do.  As I have learned over the past 20 years with Cole and now Gabe and Si, these boys are really not the ones that are DISabled.........that my friends, would be us, the so called abled ones.  These boys have taught us so much.  If we all loved like them, forgave like them, embraced life like them..........we would all be much better people.  Probably much like God had intended us to be.  But, as we all know, that is not how it is.  It seems our world, our societies, are becoming more wicked, more immoral, and more depraved than I can ever remember.  But these boy's of ours, these boys who have taught us so much, they keep us grounded.  We don't have to look far at all to see God's goodness.  It surrounds us every single day.  We get to go to bed with it every nite. Wake up to it every morning and LIVE IT all day long.   Now, I'm typing these words with a big smile on my face. I know what you might be thinkin, yes I do!!  Is it always pleasant?? No. Is it always easy?? Heck no. Is it always smiles and belly laughs?? NO and NO. Are we always glad we said "yes" to them?? YES, YES, YES. ABSOLUTELY. WITHOUT A DOUBT.  Would we do it again??  Yes.  Just so happens WE ARE!  Has that been an easy decision? No.  Have there been some doubts and long sleepless nights?? Yes. Is all our family on board with us?? No. Has that been difficult for us?? Yes, more than they know.  Will this adoption take away from and/or affect the boys already in our home?? Yes.   And will having  these special kiddos take away from and/or affect our grandchildren?? Yes.  But here's the deal.........What these boys GIVE far out weighs what they TAKE.   I want my kids(all of them) and grand kids to know that this world does not revolve solely around them. Yes, their life is very important, but so is every other life.  I want them to know that they are loved beyond measure, and their needs will always be taken care of, to the best of our abilities,  but I also want them to know and understand, this is not the way it is for everyone.  I want them to learn acceptance of those different than them, and compassion for those that struggle. I want them to learn, and realize, that there is much joy in just the simplest things.  Will one more special boy in our life make a difference in their lives????  I sure hope so.   SO, with hands already full :) and a heart even fuller.......here is our new little guy.    

He turned 5 in January and he too has down syndrome.  God never ceases to amaze me with His plan for lives.  I will admit that I really questioned Him this time!  But each time I found myself doubting we could do this again, He showed me we could.  Each scripture, each post, each talk with Rick, a confirming call from a Chinese woman (seriously. and I almost hung up!), every sign we asked for, He delivered.  So, whats a person to do!  I never want to be someone who speaks of great faith but fails to ACT on it, or one who speaks of great faith and only acts when it's reasonable or makes sense.  For me, that is not true faith.  Hang around and I'll tell you more about our little guy in a few days and where we're at in the adoption.  Prayers for our family would be greatly appreciated. Be blessed!

Tuesday, November 4, 2014


(started this weeks ago!)
As I sit here and think, I know I'm going to leave out so much. My mind is just now clearing from the fog of tiredness and lots of lose ends.  Only last night did I come across the videos of the first moments I saw Josiah on Gotcha Day!  There was so much to take in that day and for the next 2 weeks.  But first let me just say, if it weren't for this long lost (but found again), forever childhood friend of mine......I would have never made it those 2 weeks. I kept telling her I was gonna have to up her pay! (she wishes!!)  Jayne Adams McFather, (aka Ethel, Nana, Mom), you were the "pop to my tart!"(I ate alot of those over there), the "french to my fry"(and yes we jumped for joy when we found some), the "sun in my shine", but most importantly, the "BEST in my friend"!!! I love you and thanks will never be enough for all you did for me and Josiah while we were in China.(this gal literally carried Josiah all over Nanning and Guangzhou for me!)  I'm so thankful we got to share those first moments and weeks of Josiah's new life, together.  And we will continue our journey with him, together, YOU and your family and ours. OK, now I have to share a few lovely pictures of my side kick!

Like I said, she was the FRENCH to my FRIES!
(McDonalds never taste so good!)

Giddy up pony! (getting off was pretty funny. I spared
ya that one!)

 A little water fun. Thanks Nana!

Best tastin pizza E.V.E.R.

He loves his Nana.

Ethel (in the background) and Josiah catching some Z's at the airport.

 A little meditating is always good!

Nana....you so funny!

And.......sleeping beauty one more time!! (and if I could get the other pictures off my dang laptop I'd show em your elephant get off or the attempt anyway!!)
I love you my friend.  :)

And to finish this up, and until I can put more together, here are a few more pictures!

Oh, and one other thing......this is ADOPTION AWARENESS month.  You may not feel led to adopt but there is SOMETHING you CAN do.


"You may not can change the world.......but for ONE CHILD, you can change THEIR world."


Monday, September 1, 2014


There's so much to tell about this journey to Josiah. And I will, when I feel human again! The travel this time has just kicked my tail (and maybe the busy little body with us had something to do with it too!) But, we are home and trying to keep our head above water at the moment. Josiah is doing very well and warming up to us more each day.  He's a funny little guy too!  Very animated and has the most precious giggle. I've been trying to think of what has stood out to me the most in these past two weeks while in China getting him, and I keep coming back to the word GRACE.  God's grace.  The entire time.....we were covered.  TYJ.

Here are a few pictures and once I'm back up and running, I'll share more of our journey to Josiah!  Be blessed   :)

 waiting on flight 

 one must always be prepared???

  giving a speech 

 water bug

fun fun fun! 

Nana.....couldn't have done it without her. 

 Hi mom!

 Can we get these in America??

 sleeping beauties

 headed HOME!

 big brothers

 brotherly love

 falling asleep with love all around

FOREVER HOME and these eggs aren't bad!!


Wednesday, July 16, 2014



And when I get home, I'm gonna tell everybody how much you guys want a family too.
I promise.  I will never forget you.

Thank you Jesus.   
The time has finally come, 
and I'm going home! My mama and her good friend will
pick me up on August 18th. Please pray that they don't get lost
and end up somewhere else!! Hurry mama, I've been waiting for my family a long time!
Josiah Zhensi Decker

As I type these words, and look at this precious boy and his friends, I have to admit......
it's somewhat bittersweet for me. Ok, it's ALOT bittersweet for me.  I can hardly wait to touch this little guys face and tell him he is loved and how his big crazy family is waiting for him and what fun we are going to have.  But........

I also know that the ones sitting beside him, and the ones in the next room and down the hall, on the floors above him and below him........thousands, millions, all over the world.......have no one.

Can we rescue them all??? 

No.   But then WE didn't rescue this one.

WE are the rescued people!

We love because WE were FIRST LOVED!

It's so simple.  It really is.  Yet we always make it so difficult.

My God says this IS our problem.  It's not a "by choice" thing.

Adopting these special kiddos is where God led us.

Where is He leading you?? 

What are YOU doing for THE LEAST, THE LAST, AND THE LOST??

"Then the righteous will answer him, saying, Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you drink? And when did we see you a stranger and welcome you, or naked and clothe you?  And when did we see you sick or in prison and visit you?  And the King will answer them, "Truly, I say to you, as you did to one of the least of these my brothers, you did it to me."  Matthew 25:37-40

Thanks so much to those of you who have covered us in prayer during these last months. Our "Journey to Josiah" has once again proven to be ALL and ONLY GOD!!  Wow.
Please continue to pray for us and our boys at home, and also Josiah, as his little world is fixing to be turned upside down, for the better yes, but still, upside down.  May you all be blessed with love that can only come from the One above. Thanks again!

OK JOSIAH.....LUCY(mama) and ETHEL(jayne) ARE COMING!!!!

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Live or ALIVE!

Alot has been going on in our lives these past few weeks. And this momma has not handled it all gracefully either!  As a matter of fact, I have been totally knocked off my feet!  But God is faithful and He sends angels to encamp around those who love and honor Him.  For the past few weeks these angels have carried me and interceded for me when I couldn't even seem to muster a word.  Thank you so much to those of you who have prayed and carried me through these past weeks.  And for those that don't know, well that story is in the making!  Just know that God is still God and He is writing my story and I am forever grateful for the path He has set me on.  Now on to the reason for this post!

Yesterday was Mother's Day(well it was when I wrote this!), and my intentions were for Rylie and I to go to a mom's breakfast at church before church started but, my morning had alittle turn of "emotions" and I decided to just stay home and worship from here while the rest of the family went on to our church service, knowing that I could catch it live online.

Now, let me back up for just a minute.  Because of the storm we have found ourselves in, I have been so concerned about our adoption of Josiah. How was this going to effect it?? What if they say no??? What if ??????????? You get the picture, right??  Well, the Lord and I have been havin some real serious conversations about this and just like always, He continues to show me that only through faith in Him are we going to make it through ANY trials that come our way.  Nothing is too big for God.  Nothing surprises God.  I am to handle this situation just like I handle ALL situations that come our way. And that's through Him and with Him.  And I know this.  "BUT GOD..........I REALLY need a "visual" sign. Maybe You could do that one more time for me??  I trust you Lord, I do, but I'm really scared. More than anything, I want YOUR will to be done here.  I never wanted or want any of this to be about my will."   During this conversation with Him I was holding a picture of Josiah that was taken at his orphanage probably about a year and a half ago and then I randomly stuck his picture back in my bible.

Now back to yesterday, Sunday, Mother's Day.  Just like it was suppose to our church service came on live at 11:00 with praise and worship music having already started and soon to be followed with Shannon's sermon.  At some point right before the music team finished I got up to go do something and when I came back Shannon had already started his sermon.  Now I thought it was kinda funny that he wasn't preaching a "Mother's Message" but what do I know!! Besides, I had missed the first part of the sermon so maybe he already said what he was gonna say about mothers day and had just gone on with the series that we have been on for a few weeks.(oh, and I also missed last week)  Never thought another thing about.  Got my bible and began following along. Like alot of times, it was as if he (our pastor) was talking directly to me or at me.  As he began to wrap things up, he had one more passage to discuss and that's when it happened...........the very last scripture he referred to was in 1 John Chapter 4.  I began to flip over to it and when I got there............there he was, my picture of Josiah.  But more than that.......There.HE.was.  And at the top of the page at some time or another I had written "GOD IS LOVE." And verses were underlined, one of them saying, "We love because he first loved us." Remember I said God and I had been having alot of conversations about our little guy??    I asked specifically for a visual sign and the Lord provided me with what I needed to keep us moving forward with His plan for us.  And the underlined verse went right with it! We love BECAUSE HE FIRST LOVED US!  THAT is the reason we go. That's the reason for Cole being here.  That is the reason we went to Russia for Gabe. That is the reason we are going to China for Josiah. I can give you more, yes, but they all go back to God's love for us.  Thank you Lord Jesus for continuing to show me. Use me Lord to bring love to others, especially the unloved and unwanted in this fallen world we live.


I had just dried up my "thankful tears" when Rick and the kids got home from church. Rylie came in and handed me a beautiful rose and said "Guess what scripture the sermon was over today? 1 Samuel blah blah blah *******   "WHAT???????????"  I said???? Huh??? No, the sermon was over spiritual gifts!!Right????  "No, it was all about mommas and Mother's day," Rylie said, "thought you were going to listen to it?"  "I did listen," I said, "only I didn't hear the same one ya'll did!"  BUT, I heard the one God had for me.

And then the tears began to fall again.(just as they are as I write this. :)  )  Thankful, happy, in awe of, tears.  In awe of a Savior who is in EVERY DETAIL of the stories He is directing us to live out and tell.

Guess I didn't have a "live" service after all!!!  But let me assure you of this.......I serve an ALIVE Lord and Savior.  I don't have a clue how my story will end.  All I know is, it will end!  But that END will just be the beginning for those who believe and stand firm on that believeth.

So, stayed tuned for, in the words of Cole Lawrence.....THE REST OF THE STORY soon to come!
May you and yours be blessed.

  "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." Matthew 7:7